"There are 2 kinds of shit. Those that can make flowers grow and those that get stepped on."

Have you ever felt cheated, lied to, betrayed and of course heartbroken for a certain reason? Like the time maybe you got cheated by the ice-cream man or studied so hard but your teacher decided to fail you OR after having the perfect love session with your "companion", he/she decides to dump you. I have, and this is my story...

Imagine going through shit for 6 months and giving your best despite whatever everyone says about the training. Oh... those were the days. I ran with all my sweat, feet and...sweat, chiong sua with all my might, shouting and giving orders until my voice become coarse, enduring pain in my back and thigh while trekking up the knoll and of always, putting my best foot forward were of no use. Nope. It really were of no use doing all those and giving my best. Futile attempt. All i ever ask for back in ASLC was (and this might sound crazy) getting posted to Guards vocation. Yes. Told you its crazy.

The time when almost every trainee wants to go to Tekong to enjoy the slackest of slack life in NS, i chose to go to Guards. Don't blame me. I'm no wayang or crazy old bitch. Its just that personally, wearing brown is better than green. Infantry men, there's like thousands of them around in Singapore. Throw a stone form the top of Wisma Atria and you'd probably hit an NS men who's in Infantry vocation.

Sigh. Life's unfair. Like totally...

I remember doing SOC the first tiem and my timing was like 10min+. But the "news" of Guards intake perked me up and of course i ran and ran until i got my personal best of 8.36min. I could have done faster if i had not slowed down at the beginning. Whatever it is, (arrgghh!) i can't believe i'm going to BMTC to teach RECRUITS, when i actually have the knowledge and ability to lead 6 men under me. My IPPT Gold, Marksman badge and all the route marches and tests i have taken to secure the Combat Skills Badge is like useless now. Fuck. There i said it.

Its like you're competent to teach corporals but they give you recruits. Hello?! Insult here. Like totally MAJOR. This is bullshit man. Of course, in BMTC i can have lesser "responsibility" than being in unit and that is fun but don't you think its an insult me?! Dang. My friends who wants to go to BMTC and with hardly and additional badges is going to a unit.

I'm still in denial. But of course, i'll try and be optimistic and think of all the "fun" i can have there. Gym-ing for free, playing soccer with the rest of the SGTs and eating night snacks for all i care, thats life. Yeah... We can't always have what we want can we? But sometimes, such things i believe is a blessing in disguise. Who knows? Who knows....